It was a day not unlike any other day that would occur in England.  The sun shone and the wind blew in a wistful manor.  It seemed like everyday in this country but, today would be a day that would change my life.  I have always been a reserved individual; always concerned about how others saw myself; never able to truly be myself.  I was always concerned how others viewed my actions before I made them, rather than considering my feelings first.  That is the life of a fool who is indoctrinated in a believe system.  You are not allowed to be yourself; you are only allowed to be what you are told to be.  That was until that faithful day that would change my life.

I was watching Better Tomorrow as I said earlier and something inside me snapped.  I didn't become insane but I was able to let out those emotions that were trapped inside myself.  It was like an avalanche at first but after a while ( a long while ), I realised that being myself wasn't such a bad thing after all.  If I wanted to cry when watching a film; that was OK.  I no longer had to worry about the feelings of the weak.

I found that I could enjoy programs that was considered gay for men.  I could be myself and not give a damn what anyone felt.  It was like a mile stone had been removed from my shoulders.  I'm not saying I'm gay, because this would be a lie too.  I am just saying that I could be myself and enjoy every moment of it.  No longer was I weighed down by the religious crap that is designed to control my every waking moment; like some dog waiting for his master to tell him what he can and can't do.  If I felt like crying, I cried.  If I felt like laughing, I laughed and there wasn't anything odd about doing so.  All I knew was that I had been reborn again and I wanted to enjoy every minute of it.

The trouble with being able to be yourself is that, to others; this is a bad thing.  It highlights their failures and they feel the need to bring the enlightened one I.E. me, back into the fold.  We can't have somebody enjoying their live.  That will never do.  We need to convince this person that he needs god.  Without god there is no future.

I say now.  Take your god and shove it up your arse.  I don't need god and I don't want god.  I have everything ( within reason ) now already.  What I seek can not be provided by an illusion, a fictitious character of their imagination.  Maybe one day I will find that which I seek or go insane trying.  What I do know is that the world does not need religion and the sycophants that represent this fantasy.

If you can learn one thing from my failure of a life is, to never let anyone tell you what to do or what to think.  In the first millennium, it was necessary to control the masses through fear but that is no longer the case.  If it is good to you, do it.  Just remember the consequences before you make your decisions in life.  In this country I live in, we are always told what we can or can not do and most of the times, it is done to keep the weak under control.  This is a fallacy to make us always feel weak.  If we were to stretch our wings and fly to the top; we would become a threat.  I say good.  Perhaps this world needs a shacking up and some new blood.  A new world order as a previous President would say.    All I do know is that I will no longer accept the Bull shit that is spouted by those who perceive themselves to be in positions of power, when the real power has always been in the hands of the common people.  I am a common person and so are you but; you have so much potential and only when you realise this will you be able to do something about this.   If I can get one person to get off their backside and fulfil their potential, then my life would not have been completely wasted. 

Achieve your potential and never let anyone stand in your way.  Your future may be clouded to you at the moment but if you let some arse hole tell you otherwise, how much more clouded do you think it will get?  Live as a lion for a day, be a free man in you grave and be everything you can be.  Don't be like me and not follow your dreams.